What brings you joy and happiness?

Let me give you an unexpected flip on the question from author Michael Singer –

“If you can feel joy and happiness all the time, who cares what happens on the outside?”

Nothing can bring you joy and happiness for long.  Only you can do that.

Lying creates stress

Lying creates stress. 

You have to worry about getting caught. 

You have to remember the story you made up and all the versions you told to different people.  

You have to lie again to keep it going.

Your subconscious eats at you (hopefully) because it is not who you are, or want to be.

This all creates stress.  That is how a lie detector works – it does not sense a lie, it senses stress.

You don’t need to lie.  Just tell the truth and stop worrying about your ego and how you look. 

Most people don’t think about you much at all anyway.  You being human will be no surprise to anyone, and you being honest will be refreshing and appreciated.

Don’t lie. 

It’s not worth the trouble or the long-term expense.

No goal – no energy

If you don’t have a goal that energizes you each day, you will feel tired all the time.

I find this to be true for me.  If I do not have a mission, or if it is vague and I have not decided what steps to take next (today), my energy level is down.

Once I get my mind on a worthy goal or the next step toward it, I’m engaged and do not think so much about how I feel, how hungry I am, how tired I am, or my little aches and pains.  I have a job to do!

Do you have a goal you are working toward that energizes you each day?

Dakar – lessons from the longest race on earth. Part 15 – The Finish

January 17th.  Last Stage.  Stage 13.

It was awesome, but I wanted it to be over.  Everyone did.

Funny how you sign up for such an event.  People say “Did you have fun in Saudi Arabia?”  The answer is “No!”  Fun is not the word.  It was not fun.  You don’t do this for fun.  You do it so you can know you can.  That you can endure.  You can plan well enough. That you were tough enough physically and mentally, and that you were smart enough.  That you had the right combination that it takes.

Ted and I packed most of our bags before we started the stage.  We would be staying in a hotel tonight.  No more nasty trailer showers with no hot water.  A soft bed.  

Today was warm.  Hot even.  The first hot day.  We were back in Yanbu.  We made a full giant circle of Saudi Arabia.  5500 miles.  When you are wearing long underwear, a turtle neck shirt, a “balaclava,” which is a stocking cap that covers your neck with a hole for your face, (all for fire precautions), and a warm “onezie” race overalls, on a hot day, it can drain you.  I was grateful I did not sweat much until this stage.  I thought everyone would cruise and chill.  Nope.  We’re still racing hard.  Very dusty.  Cars are pushing to pass.  Rocky canyons mix.  I passed seven cars today.  The last 45 km was along the Red Sea.  You had to pay attention.  One car broke the front wheels off 15 km from finish.  One went off the road and broke the front end.  

Ricky Brabec, the American who was leading the motorcycle class by 3 1/2 minutes, got lost 10km from the finish.  He lost the 5500-mile race by two seconds.  Two seconds.  Heartbreaker.

There it was.  The finish line.  The Dakar finish line.  

We crossed it and stopped.  Our South Racing crew was there to congratulate us and celebrate.  It was a moment to be remembered.  A moment hard-earned by many.

We had to wait 3 hours in line to get on the podium and get our finisher medal.  The coveted Dakar finisher medal. 

We did it.  Dennis Murphy, South Racing, Ted, and me.  We finished Dakar!

After qualifying in Morocco and all that involved…  After having a chest infection for two months before.  The vertigo.  The stomach sick.   

The overheating. The getting stuck in the sand.  Zero visibility.  The dust and rocks.  The sand.  Oh man, the sand.

People ask me if it is harder than the Baja 1000.  The answer is that it is different. You really cannot compare them.  The Baja 1000 you can do on two wheels or four, and share the driving or riding with a team or not.  That makes a huge difference.  It’s like a whole different race depending on those two factors.  The Baja 1000 solo on a motorcycle is the hardest thing I’ve ever done.  No question.  And there are no sand dunes in Baja.  Not that we’ve raced on.  But Dakar riders have gone to Baja and hated how rough it was and said they would never return.

In Dakar, you are the only driver.  I was on four wheels.  It’s designed to wear you down day after day after long, hard day.  Make a small mistake, you’re out.  The navigation is far more difficult in Dakar.  No, follow the GPS line.  Road book.  Very different instructions.  

Dakar was the biggest adventure of my life.  The most epic.  

When you do something like this, you come back a little less restless; a little less feeling like you are playing small and missing out on something.  

You feel like you are living while you have the chance.  I believe that’s what we are supposed to do.

Three marbles I will remember forever.

Dakar – lessons from the longest race on earth. Part 14

Friday, January 16. 

Stage 12 – double digits.  It was hard to believe I had come this far.  I was still here.  After so many had crashed out or not finished for whatever reason, I was still in it.  We were.  Dennis and I were a great team.

I thought today would be an easy day like yesterday.  (“Easy” is a relative term of course.)  Nope.

Rocks all day.  Sharp ones.  I got one flat.  My third of the Rally.  Many of the other South Racing guys got 20 flats in the Rally.  

There were three dune sections apart from one another.  Each was a giant, imposing, scary mountain.  Like 30 story building size.  No kidding.  Maybe higher.  

The first one we failed right at the top and had to turn around.  We were overheating.  Oh my gosh.  Very hot engine.  While we waited there on a plateau, putting water in, Dennis bummed more water off a local spectator, as I observed other cars failing.  90% had to turn around.  Where were they going now.  Around to the left.  We got the car cooled down and went that way.  When you are in the dunes, you have to make fast decisions.  Your foot cannot come off the gas or you will get stuck.  I have to say, I felt like I was a pro dune driver that day.  

The second dune was bigger than the first.  The sand was very soft.  Lots of vehicles were stuck.  A car was on its roof.  A truck on its side.  We came over a crest to find a giant uphill off-camber (leaning to one side) climb to get out.  Vehicles were stuck at the bottom.  I floored it.  We had to abort close to the top.  As I turned down, I realized we were in a giant bowl.  Maybe 200 yards wide and 8 stories deep.  If we get stuck in the bottom of this we are doomed.  I did not want to go to the bottom.  Engine screaming. What to do?  

I tried to go around the circle to buy time, look around, and make a decision.  It was like I was circling a giant toilet bowl.  Around I went.  Half a rotation, building speed and trying to figure out what to do with it.  If I turned more uphill, I’d lose a lot of momentum and traction.  I sped the lowest part of the rim and tried to figure out what was on the other side if I tried to crest it.  

Braaaaaaaaaaaaa!  Around I went – faster.  I did 1 1/2 full circles, turned downhill some to get a straight line up the other side.  Dennis was cursing in his helmet.  Up, up, up – crest!  I made it out!  Dennis starts shouting how that was awesome and great job.  I hope I have that on GoPro!  No time to celebrate averting disaster on Stage 12 – I had to assess where I was now, and how to get back to the race course.

After some fast sections, the third giant dune section came.  We blasted up but had to go off course to avert a race truck.  Giant black lava boulders appeared among the light brown sand.  More and more of them.  We made it to the top, but the course had gone left a long time ago.  We could see it down there.  We moved slowly over big black lava balls from watermelon size to three-foot diameter.   We made it back to the course!  A race truck passed on course as we were coming into it and took a picture of us. I am sure he could not believe what he was seeing. I wish I had that picture!  Oh man, this stage was all drama!  It was wild!  

11 hours in the car.  A semi-final test.  Passed.  We knew the last Stage tomorrow was short – only 140 km.

We were now 17th overall in our class.  We had a 1 pm start time tomorrow, so I could sleep in.  

After all that, first I had to breathe.

Dakar – lessons from the longest race on earth. Part 13

Before going to bed after Stage 10, Francisco, a South Racing staffer came to us with a serious matter.  What could it be?

“We think the engine is on its way out” he says.  Oh $%&^#!

The mechanics could change the engine overnight, but we would get a 20-hour penalty.  I did not care about the penalty, as I was here to finish.  If the engine blew up out there, we were not going to achieve our goal.  We thought about it.

“Go ahead” we told him.  He went back to tell the mechanics.  It would be a very long night for them.

30 minutes later Francisco came back.  The mechanics want to talk to you.  They were great guys and we trusted them.  They were reconsidering.  If something happened when changing the engine they did not account for, missing a part, time delays, etc, we could be out anyway.  We all talked and made a decision.  We’d chance it on the engine that was overheating.  We’d continue to watch the temperature and add water when it got hot.  

Fingers crossed.

January 15. I left my house on December 30, and I am still racing.  Stage 11.  

This race goes to 13 stages.  Ok.  Stage 11.  Today.  ok.  ok.  It’s ok.

A long stage.  But I realized a pattern.  When the stage was a lot of kilometers, it was faster.  When it was fewer kilometers, it’s not going to be a shorter day – just slower and harder and more technical.  No matter what, you’re going to be in the car all day. 

Suck it up, buttercup!

It was very fast in the beginning.  Then very sharp technical rocks.  Then fast again.  No flats.  I thought it was the easiest stage yet.  We did bend a suspension part in the back.  A rock flipping up no doubt.  Not a problem to drive that way.  Then the low voltage light came on.  Then it went away.  Another long day, but we finished in the daylight.  

We were 18th in SSV for the Rally, and 115th overall.

My neck was really hurting. I went to the physical therapist guy who works for RedBull.  He beat me up.  I ate a fantastic South Racing meal, as they had every night.  Something to look forward to after a hard day eating oranges and nuts at fuel stops for lunch.  I went to bed at 9:30 feeling okay.

Almost there.  Two more stages….  

I was trying not to let my underlying general fatigue come to the surface. 

Not yet.

Dakar – lessons from the longest race on earth. Part 12

January 13, 2026  Stage 9.

Today is a long stage again.  217 km liaison, 420 km special, and 110 km liaison.  Now you might be thinking the liaison road section is a gimme, and yes, driving it is easy.  But it is boring, and cold, and at night on the way back, it’s hard to see. It’s no fun.

I don’t know what came over me, but today I decided to RACE.  I was annoyed with cars passing me.  My Baja instincts kicked in for the whole day.  We were going one way to pitch a tent again.  Well, I killed it.  We passed 23 cars today, and finished 95th overall, and 17th in our class.

There are not too many classes in Dakar like in Baja.  There are two motorcycle classes, an unlimited class, Challenger, SSV (that’s us) stock, classic, and atv.  Oh yes, there is one more incredible class – race trucks.  Not Baja kind of race trucks, I mean truck trucks.  Big giant trucks.  You’d think they’d be slow.  Oh no.  Half of them go by me!  They are fast!  Amazing to watch.  

I did hit a tree today. It was a small tree, and the brakes were locked up when I hit it.  Minor damage.  Not a big deal.  But the power steering was pulling badly to the left.  If I let the steering wheel go we would take a HARD left.  I drove 75 miles like that.

We pulled into the “refuge bivouac”, got our tent and sleeping bag, rehydrated rations from a box, and went to sleep.  No mechanics here. 

In the morning, we faced Stage 10, after another bad night’s sleep on hard ground, we fixed the steering ourselves.  Well, Dennis did. Some guys had flats and had to be extra cautious today.  We did not get any coming here, so we were good.

When I went to start the car, it was dead.  We had a jumper box and got it started.  We left the jumper box hooked up to the car all day.  

The race was wearing hard on everyone now.  This race was designed to break you.  Nothing would be easy.  There’s no calling “no fair”.  This is real.  Suck it up and get it done, or go home.  Nobody can save you.  You have come this far.  Keep going or quit.  If you quit, you still have to get back to the bivouac somehow.  Nights are very cold out here.

I focused on what was in front of me, trying to stay present and not think of how far I had to go.  Do your best in this moment. That’s all you’ve got.

Today would be a big dune day.  We were doing great, but got stuck high-centered at the crest of a dune.  A race truck was in the same predicament 40 meters to our left.  The car was overheating again.  We lost 15 minutes digging out.  At least we were not in a hole.

A while later, there was a long section of small dunes and we were behind a big truck.  We got stuck in the soft sand at the edge of a shallow hole.  We lost another 25 minutes digging out.  

We finished 18th in SSV out of 38 starters back in stage 1, despite losing time twice for getting stuck.  Since there are at least 14 pro drivers who do this for a living in our class, I’m very happy with that.  Well, as happy as you can be when you are beat down, tired, sore, and fatigued in every way.

10 stages complete.  I’m ok.

“I got this”.

Dakar – lessons from the longest race on earth. Part 11

January 12 – Stage 8

Today is the longest Special (Dirt race section) of the Rally.  171 km liaison, 487 km special, then another 171 km liaison back to the bivouac.  

It was a mix of terrain.  First it was fast, then dunes, then fast, then dunes, rocks, fast again, then just crap.

It was a tough day.  It started with dunes – big ones.  BIG.  We were behind another car when we approached the foot of a huge dune.  Another car had failed and was coming down at us. In the dunes, you have to get on the gas and get momentum and speed, or you will not make it up and over.  Your engine is whining at max rpm, but your speed is slowing and slowing as you go up.  If you feel you aren’t going to make it you have to turn down and around, otherwise you will bury all four tires and be stick on a steep slope.  It is sketchy when you turn down because when you are off camber, you feel like you are going to flip over.  You have to get the nose pointed down as soon as possible if you abort.

So this guy is coming down at us, and the guy in front of me decides to go left and around.  I follow.  Soon, we are making virgin tracks.  My plan is to cut right when I can and find the race line to rejoin it.  The sun is directly overhead, and my eyes can’t make out the shapes or the dunes or even see where the crest is. I’m surprised by sudden drops, I did not see coming. The color of the sand in front of me is the same as the sand of the higher dune in the distance, and it all blends together. I am feeling uncomfortable.

I can’t drive aggressively like you should in the dunes because I don’t want to crest a dune at speed and flip the car forward end over end, as happens to more than a few drivers.  We drop down a 20-foot slope, and the sand is super soft.  All four wheels dig in easily, and we are up to the skid plate in sand.  We are in a bowl – uphill on all sides.  Worst-case scenario.  Dennis gets out and gets to work.  He is not reporting progress.  I get out.  It’s bad.  I start digging with the shovel, but digging is not the whole answer because the undercarriage is already on the sand at the bottom of this bowl.  

The wind is blowing the sand up the slopes, and the sand is falling over the crests.  I see our deep tracks erased in minutes.  The dunes are being reshaped in real time before our eyes.  They are alive.

We have to put the two boards we have under the front tires, and jack the car up with the jack to put sand under the rear tires to lift them up.  We are jacking, and the bottom of the jack is going down and down, instead of the top coming up.  Quicksand.

I thought we were done.  From the looks of it, I didn’t think we’d ever get out.  Of course, I did not give up.  At this point, we’d die out there.  (A little dramatic. They have helicopters.)  We were off course. A chase truck could not get to our location, I didn’t think.  But we needed to finish, and we were early in the stage.  After 45 minutes, we thought we were ready to try to drive out.  The lowest part of the bowl was, unfortunately, at my seven o’clock position.  I had to get out going uphill, and turn sharply at the same time.  

I get in, start it up, and try.  I go three feet and bury in again.  Oh no!  Not good!

We get back to work.  Same procedure.  This time, by some miracle, and with engine revving and movement at a snails pace, I was able to inch forward and drive out.  Whew!  

We lost 1 1/2 hours.  Now we had to find the course.  While digging, I could hear engines in a direction over two giant crests.  I was worried about getting stuck now more than ever.  I burst through virgin sand to find the course line.  

I was grateful the rest of the day for still being in the race, no matter how much time we lost.  The overheating problem seemed to be solved.  We got back at 8:30 pm.  We were both very cold.

Tomorrow – we go one-way camping in a tent again.

Oh the joys…

Dakar – lessons from the longest race on earth. Part 10

January 11  Stage 7

Coming off rest day in the desert somewhere near Riyadh.  Trying to sleep in the bivouac is not easy.  There are helicopters coming and going – like the one for the Crown Prince of Saudi Arabia.  Apparently, there are a lot of princes, and one is in charge of motorsports, and he had a big helicopter.  Then mechanics are working on vehicles all over the bivouac, and they have to start them and test whatever they were working on. There is loud revving engine noise all night closeby.  This is Dakar. 

This stage is another long one – 875 km.  271 liaison, 450 special, 260 liaison.

Second half.  Here we go.  I felt like each mile driven now put me closer to the finish.  But I had a long way to go.

It started with big dunes.  We were “surfing” the dunes – where you wind along the crests at the tops, when a photographer was standing at the crest right in our line.  People ask me how we got such epic pictures.  Well, the race organization and South Racing hire photographers to station themselves in the most epic places and take pictures.  They send you a link to your photos by the end of the day.  It’s amazing.

Well, we almost ran one of them over.  We had to abort our good line and turn down into a bit of a hole to save the poor fellow’s life.  But we got stuck in the sand.  Dennis got out to assess the situation and to dig us out.  Meanwhile, other cars were going by us really close, and one car came over the berm and nearly T-boned us.  We lost 15 minutes.  We were lucky in many ways.

Our overheating issue persisted, and Dennis was calling the temperature to me often.  Again, it was intermittent, but climbing soft sand dunes was one thing the car did not like from an engine temperature perspective.  I was worried we’d blow this engine and it would all be over.  We had to put water in twice.

We both had our face shields changed the night before.  Wiping abrasive dust off your face shield all day puts little micro-abrasions in it until it seems cloudy.  We got new shields, but little did we know, they were the “cheap ones”.  They marred up within hours and we were struggling to see.  By nightfall, with headlights, I could not see very well at all to drive the car.  Good thing I had a backup plan.  I brought $2 safety glasses that I bought in Baja, Mexico, with me.  I put them on and raised my shield just a bit to see through.  It worked and saved us!

The dunes gave way too fast, flat sections and then small canyons with rocky passes between them.  We were chasing two cars that were both in our class just ahead of us. Suddenly, the first one veers off to the right wildly.  The next one veers suddenly to the left.  It was almost as if they were pulling over to let me pass.  Then – “Boom – Boom!”  I realized what happened.  There was a sharp tire-eating rock that they both hit.  Then we hit it for two flats at once!

Good thing we had two spares.  In Baja, we only carry one.  Dennis changed the tires and now we had to be extra cautious as we had no more spares.  Our flat-less streak was broken.  Dang.  We lost 30 minutes and finished 115th overall, and 24th in our class.  

On the two-hour liaison in the cold darkness back to the bivouac, we were following another car.  Remember, in the liaison road sections, we are not being timed.  Dennis realized that he had missed a turn 15 km back.  Nobody saw it in the black night.  We flagged him down and told him but he did not believe us.  He elected to keep going. We turned back and went a long way.  To be honest, I doubted Dennis was right.  Then he started doubting it himself, but he said the road book said keep going back.  We were cold and tired, and an hour and a half from the bivouac.  Finally, we found this important hidden turn, and were headed the right way home.  When you are in a foreign country, in the middle of nowhere, in the cold night, with limited food and gas, you can get into a bad situation quickly.  Ask me how I know.

I was tired.  Very tired.

Six stages to go.

Dakar – lessons from the longest race on earth. Part 9

Did you ever set out to do something out of your comfort zone, and you are unsettled by it, and it’s challenging, but once you are there and it seems to be going well, a feeling of satisfaction comes over you?  You are proud of what you are doing?

You never know what you can do if you do not try.  

I took stock of where I was. In Saudi Arabia, in the most remote locations, racing in the longest race on the planet. Pinch me. I’m actually here doing it.

Ted was doing great with his duties, taking enough footage, interviews, and setting up GoPro cameras on the car each day so we could make a movie later.  The question is – how will it end?  I guess that part was my job.

South Racing continued to wow me.  I became great friends with my mechanics, the cooks, and the whole staff.  At Dakar, everyone is in the same boat.  We are all talking at dinner about our day, the challenges, and our problems.  Egos are out the door by now.  We are all helping each other however we can.  

Stage 6.  A long one today.  A whopping 925 Kilometers.  270 km liaison, 336 km special, and 260 km liaison back.  That’s far.  The liaisons were very cold sitting there at the speed limit on the road.  But during the day, it was perfect – cool – no sweating. 

Today, ALL DUNES!  

Today was the day to see if I had shaken the dune curse for good.  We started the special in the dunes, watching cars launch up over the first high crest and disappear.  Our turn.  Let’s go!  

I did great!  I did not feel sick all day.  Up and down.  Up and down.  Up, up, up, and doooooown.  Early on, I followed an “ultimate class” car closely.  I learned some lines from him.  It’s an advantage to follow another guy because you can see how fast his car disappears over a crest.  If it’s a gentle slope on the other side or a sharp downhill, you can see it and ride the crest appropriately yourself.  After 30 minutes or so, we were on our own. 

We got the four-wheel drive figured out – good thing because in this soft sand, we needed it.  After 200 km, we had to stop to add water to the engine again. The problem was not getting fixed.  We were thinking it was a head gasket.  They had changed the radiator, hoses, and all kinds of things to try to fix it, yet we were still losing antifreeze.   

At one point, the car would not go over 90km/hr.  But Dennis found a low gear switch that was engaged.  

We were in the dunes for the last hour.  Our lights were not good like the lights we have in Baja.  But here they don’t expect you to be out at night for too long.  In Baja, you are racing sunset to sunrise.  Dennis told me something surprising – he had never navigated at night before. I probably had 100 hours of night racing experience.  It didn’t worry me – but these lights seemed like 2 candle-power.  Geez.  

I was really happy about my driving.  The dunes were tough.  Another South racing car aborted the day when it got dark.  He would not drive in the dunes at night for how scary it can be.  He was out of the Dakar Rally for that.

My mechanics were thrilled that I went six days without a flat or any major damage.  They say it is a Dakar record.  Put me in the record books, coach!  Hey, it’s something!…..

We finished 110th on the day, 19th in our class – the best yet.  We are in 107th position overall for all four-wheel vehicles.  

We got back to the bivouac at 10 pm.  I got to bed at 12:30 am.  Late.  Here’s the great news.  There is a “rest day” – no racing for a day in the middle of the rally.  Tomorrow was a rest day! We were near Riyadh and could perhaps go to the city for a visit.  But there was no way I’d have time.  There was much to do, including REST!

I had finished the first half of the Dakar Rally.  Many did not. I had the terrain and the driving figured out.  There was no terrain type they could throw at me now that I was not comfortable in.  At least I thought…

I was tired and grateful.